note and autumn leaves, from Pixabay
Circle of Hope
I sometimes envision
a scene of three:
Jesus, my deceased
sixteen-year-old son
Calvin, who is somehow
alive, and me.
We are holding hands
and circling clockwise.
Like a walking dance.
We are blissfully happy.
I can’t get this image
out of my mind.
It instills hope
that everything
will work out in the end.
It gives me something
to look forward to
outside of the
day to day challenges
of reality.
Reunion on the horizon.
Not just wishful but
a sacred destiny.
The world is a giant landscape
that speaks to us saying
we all leave our imprint
before we leave.
We are not just specks
in the universe
scattered about haphazardly.
More like a circle
in eternity.
A triumph of love
in the end.
******
Crystal Clear
Swing the doors wide open.
It’s time to enter a new realm.
Nothing before matters right now.
It will never be forgotten.
But can’t rule your spirit.
You are you.
Now is now.
Recognize the present
and respect it.
It will never be again.
Where should you begin?
Welcome the day
and promise to be the
best version of yourself.
No excuses.
No emotion will control you
today.
Separate from sorrow.
Your heart and soul
know what they know.
And will forever.
Don’t punish yourself.
You are not to blame.
Good is from God
and you are from that tree.
Branch out and help others
understand.
There is so much to learn here.
Signs to be seen.
You are on your own journey.
I am here to help.
Anytime.
Sending out a message.
Hope it’s
crystal clear.
Robert Pegel is a husband and father whose only child died in 2016. Calvin was just16 and died in his sleep. Robert writes to process the unimaginable and to try and transform his pain and loss. Robert graduated from Columbia University where he majored in English. He has been published in The Madrigal, Remington Review, Trouvaille Review, A New Ulster, The Galway Review, Bluepepper, As Above So Below, Goat’s Milk, Last Leaves, The Pangolin Review, Ariel Chart, and others. He has work forthcoming in North Dakota Quarterly, Mason Street, Resurrection Magazine, and 433 Magazine. Robert lives in Andover, New Jersey, with his wife, Zulma, and their Min Pin dog, Chewy.
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